State of Affairs

My driving test is on Wednesday and my instructor is in the hospital.
I will try my best to pass, there is no rush… plenty of time before i get a car.

I have this suddenly crazy motivation/urge to complete the movie script by
1st June 2008. I will take a week to write the synopsis before writing the details 
on the characters/locations/props etc. This is my first time writing a script, i have
no experience prior to that. Although my literature teacher did tell me i have the
ability to write a play if i wanted to. I have finally gotten down to it due to Jeri’s 
encouragement. I feel that we only live once in this world, it is better to do it and
not regret later.

A few days ago, my air conditioning unit switch below my bed burned due to electricity overload. It short circuited and stopped burning before it magnified into flames. Wasn’t for that, i wouldn’t be typing here now.There are a couple of near death experiences i have been through, i am very thankful for being alive today. Sometimes i really wonder why am i still living, i know that i would have died a long time ago wasn’t for heaven’s blessings. I know there is a purpose of my being that is keeping my alive and from all harm.

My state of mind is not on this world’s plane. It is above that, reality is physical to me. I see it drifting in and out of my consciousness as i submerge myself in the metaphysical world. I live in two worlds, everything around me is amplified. It is like hallucating sometimes. My heart beats intensely when there is nothing happening (physically) but in my mind someone is chasing me or something. The information overload is taxing on my mind, the accelerated movement… the warped reality of it all. Sometimes i wish i was simpler and “normal”.

Again, this attribute has its benefits. I visualise rapid movements and images. It happens in a super fast rewind forward speed. Sometimes it drives me crazy. I am trying to make sense of what goes through my head.

I do know the key to understanding people is to understand thyself first. That is why i self-evaluate myself so i can see other’s clearly. I feel happy when i see the people around me doing well in life. That extra push…. that extra motivation. That is what they need in order to do well. There is no need to fear of competition, after all, stragetic alliances do help each other up. Brilliant people gather together to exchange ideas and support each other. That is how they synergise and create a new movement to change the world. Singaporeans fail to see that and keep everything to their own, that is why some of them never reach their highest potiential in life. (blame it on the competitive grading system in our education sector)

Looks like everything around me is changing for the better. My dad is getting a new job. Jeri is changing jobs. Willie is on the crossroads to making a final decision. It s a transition zone at this current place and time. And I? Full fledged writing and starting school end of this month.

Jeri and I are going to do something big in March that we been planning for several months of experimenting and developing. Things are starting to go upwards like a hyperbola curve. We have planned what we are going to do for the next 5 years ahead, i am sure the journey will be a very rewarding one…. at the end of it all… the two of us kissing passionately at the end.