Been reading a book about the early human civilisation.

“History is written by the victors, the losers become marginalised.”

It is quite a point to note that during the stone age,
Women were the leaders of the tribe while the men went out to hunt. 
Men were expendable, one man can impregnate several women.
So women stayed in the caves to carry on the bloodline while the men
risked their lives in danger to hunt for food. While the “wounded healers”
became the “wise ones” who developed spiritual powers to provide
healing and wisdom (such as the location of water sources) to the tribe.

After the stone age, everything turned around and men started taking control.
Women were suppressed and the wise ones became labelled as witches.
The innocent were burnt at stake for being suspected of “worshiping the devil”.

We lost our roots that connected us to Mother Earth and its gifts.
The land that we walk upon, the air we breathe, the water we drink
and the fire that gives birth to life. The world is in chaos because we
had lost our spiritual self that connects us with earth.

In order to gain back our spiritual self, we have to start being aware of
the Universe. The universe gives us whatever we ask for. The resources
on earth are here to serve us.

I am agnostic by religion (someone who believes it is impossible to know if god exists)
I am open and receptive to all religions, but i am drawn to the New Age movement.
It makes sense that we have to connect to the world in to find a purpose in our lives. 

(Note: Religious sensitivity. Views are subject to the author’s experiences)
 
I have been reading about witchcraft, the occultism and paganism
for a few years. I find that wiccans (or magick practitioners) are a
misunderstood bunch. I find that their religion is purest of all religions
because they worship Mother Earth. They use nature gifts and blessings
to create spells to heal the people around them.

Then again there are the dark practitioners who use dark magick to
create curses instead. (Not all Roman Catholic Priests are holy either)

I find it quite fascinating to read up on religions (i am not a witch btw)
The idea of being connected with nature to gain spiritual balance is an
interesting concept altogether.

Between November of 1881 and July of 1890, Vincent van Gogh painted almost 900 paintings. Since his death, he has become one of the most famous painters in the world. Van Gogh’s paintings have captured the minds and hearts of millions of art lovers and have made art lovers of those new to world of art. The following excerpts are from letters that Van Gogh wrote expressing how he evolved as a painter. There are also links to pages describing some of Vincent van Gogh’s most famous paintings, Starry Night, Sunflowers and The Potato Eaters, in great detail.

Van Gogh firmly believed that to be a great painter you had to first master drawing before adding color. Over the years Van Gogh clearly mastered drawing and began to use more color. In time, one of the most recognizable aspects of Van Gogh’s paintings became his bold use of color.

About a year before his death Van Gogh predicted that there would be a great “painter of the future” who would know how to use color like no one else and would become the future of painting. He expressed this in a letter to his brother Theo in May of 1888,

During his lifetime Van Gogh was never famous as a painter and struggled to make a living as an artist. Van Gogh only sold one painting during his lifetime The Red Vineyard. This painting sold in Brussels for 400 Francs only a few months before his death.

Vincent van Gogh died at the age of 37 bringing his career as a painter to an end, but beginning his legacy as the great painter of the future who inspired the world.

About a week after his death, Van Gogh’s brother Theo wrote to his sister Elizabeth about Van Gogh’s legacy as a great artist,

“In the last letter which he wrote me and which dates from some four days before his death, it says, “I try to do as well as certain painters whom I have greatly loved and admired.” People should realize that he was a great artist, something which often coincides with being a great human being. In the course of time this will surely be acknowledged, and many will regret his early death.”

What is socially acceptable and what is not?
There is a very thin line to it.

In Malaysia, kissing in public can warrant a fine.
In Singapore, it is only natural for couples to do so.

So how about going further…

So what if people make out in public areas?
Isit right or wrong?

It is pretty subjective, after all it is public property.

Socially acceptable?
Nope, definitely not. What if there are kids around?
Won’t they get traumatised by the incident?

There are so many issues in this world that we are trying to figure out if it is ethical or appropriate to do so that we refrain from doing it due to the laws the country holds. By staying in the line, we steer away from trouble and live like normal people. But, is everyone of us normal? I am sure everyone have their kinks, but they just do it behind closed doors. They won’t tell others about it either. They fear of being rejected by others … to be labelled as a deviant or abomination of some sort.

Then again i applaude Otto Fong for coming out with an open letter about his sexual orientation and Paddy Chew for admiting he has AIDS and fighting for AIDS awareness and medical facilities during the 1990s.

There are so few people brave enough to come out into the open that i feel disappointed with the way things are progressing. I badly want to be the next voice for women rights that have been kept under the sheets for the longest of time.

*Averal needs the extra boost of motivation to write the movie script by June 08.

The Arts

This includes drama, poetry, fine arts, among a few other stuff. Intellectual stuff. There is math to everything, and these are not exceptions. Be thankful you’re getting taught some math, because real math is nothing like what schools have in their textbooks. Also, it doesn’t matter if you fail throughout the route. Some things definitely get inside your mind, and that’s enough to survive in this world. You’ll not be the fittest, but you will be fit.

Those who challenge the flow and are able to see 10-20 years in the future are the ones that do badly in terms of academics. A paper which says you can do this and that is not valid everywhere. Those who go by the book, with the flow, the goats, are the ones that will serve the puppets of the puppets, and will be the examples of “good students”. In truth, they are only moulded – they don’t mould themselves.
Quoted from gutturalpiss.

I wish i had been told this earlier, but i managed to survive the rigidity of the systems so far.
I have a different perception of things, some people can’t accept them so they try to find a way
to say stuff to defend themselves so they can keep living in their own little world of theirs.

The most valuable lesson in life i learnt is to never to underestimate anyone.
By underestimating, you are putting yourself in the disadvantage.

By calculating the potential of growth of the individual, you are putting yourself in an advantage. There are early and late boomers. Early boomers does not equate to further growth in the future. Late boomers might out smart them and take over their positions.

In any interpersonal relationships, it is better not to judge a person on the first impression (which is most likely an act). My parents had based their judgements on my friends on their first impression and they are usually wrong. There was once my parents told me to hang out with this friend of mine who goes to a good school, who comes from a good family and lives in a good home. What they don’t know is that she shoplifts and steals. I was trying to understand and accept why she did it but that was many years back when i was younger.

I never underestimate anyone. I believe that anyone can do it. Although my thinking opposite the traditional view that only certain people are likely to succeed, i believe everyone is entitled to success… the only thing is that they hold themselves back.

I used to be a very negative dark person who is skeptical of the world and the people around me. I hide myself in a cell, refusing help from all directions. Drowning in my misery.

When i read dark literature nowadays, i get flashbacks of my past. One of my friends says that my poetry has lost its “touch”… i can’t seem to find a reason to write dark poetry when i am so happy with Jeri worshipping me like a goddess. 

You see, i have been reading self help books. There are just some things in school that we don’t learn about the real world. The secret to success is relatively simple. It has to do with the mind. We attract what we ask for. Why do people stay poor all their lives is because they say negative stuff like “i am uneducated, unskilled and i can’t find a job” and it becomes their reality. WHEN they could change it around by just saying “Qualifications doesn’t matter, i have what it takes to succeed” and BOOM the universe will give them what they ask for. 

Before Jeri came into my life, i asked for someone who will truly loves me for who i am. I asked the universe for someone to protect me and guide me from all harm. When Jeri came, the universe was responding to my request. If i had not believe that someone like Jeri would come along, i would probably still be a depressed+not eating+sleeping well and not doing artsy stuff like writing a script and photoshoots (can you see the difference it makes!?)  

It might sound like bullshit but that is how the world works. Pick up any self help books and they will say the same.  Because we doubt what we could receive for asking, we might not receive it. By casting all doubts and negativity aside, we will get what we ask for.

I have been staying away from negative people ever since i found this out. I can’t stand them. It irks me to be around them. Especially people who manipulate others to attain their means. I believe in a win-win situation when it comes to business. Both sides should benefit, it balances out the equilibrium. By taking advantage of people, it destablizes and karma will make up for it.

Then again, majority of the people around us are pretty negative. They doubt and doubt and question and question our calibers and use it for comparison for some make believe competition in their head.

The only way is to not let them get into your head! Tell them to fuck off and look at themselves before criticising others.  I don’t exactly say that out loud, but they are trying to put some negative influence to cripple the people around them so they will always stay ”below” their level. Remember that before letting other’s bring you down in future.
 
  

Geniuses are mentally unstable people
Who have weird habits and views of the world.
Who can’t differentiate reality from fantasy
Or facts from fiction.

They are outcasted introverted beings
That live in their own world of things
Because others don’t see what they see
They are either worshipped or unnoticed
at the current time and place of their being.

They have several gifts in tradeoffs for
severe weaknesses, that they hide.
They usually have a disorder of some sort
in their mind… the world spins around at
a haywire speed that controls their senses
as they do extraordinary feats in short periods of time.

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I believe that we are all geniuses in our own special way.

I have no idea why the world derives pleasure out of seeing famous celebrities naked on bed.
They are humans, you are a human too.
What difference does it make? They have the same body parts too. 

Ok… Edison Chen had a fetish for photographing his girlfriends naked BUT that is his personal life… why is everyone making a big woo ha about it? I mean, he is an adult… he has a sexual desire… he slept with his girlfriends. SO? Does that make him less of a person? He is a normal human being after all… he was just doing what he did as a normal human would do.

I feel very sorry for the girls. Their careers are in jeopardy. Their marriage lives are at sake. Their future unclear.
Would they be accepted by the society after this incident?
Would they be seen as sluts and whores?

After all, they were his girlfriends… and they were in love with him at that moment of time.
Now the whole world has access to their private pictures… laughing… mocking at their indecent act when all they were doing is making love to him….

Sometimes i feel like killing all these superficial people who takes joy in making a mockery out of others.  

People derive pleasure out of seeing other’s misfortunes. Averal Lim

We are just so fortunate… even to be here right now reading this on the computer online.

We are not in a war torn nation where there are killing going on around us….
We are not suffering in poverty of thinking where does the next meal comes…
Or having disabilities that hinders…

We are just so lucky to be able to go online… to know more about the world…
To learn from others… to observe their lives… in their writings… videos… and all the media available.
To widen our perspective of the world we live in… to change our way of thinking.

There are so much people out there …. suffering.
In floods… in storms… in famine…
Not knowing where to go… how to get there…
In cages… in locks…. in jail…
Abandoned by society… kept out of sight…

I am very thankful for the life that i have, for people around me.
I am so thankful for every single bit of it, i treasure everything that i have.

I won’t disappoint them, they have faith in me.
I know i can do it, and i will do it.
I will do them proud.

I will be successful, i will change the world.
I will eradicate war and poverty with the utmost ability i have as a limited human being.

Life is short… do what you must do before it disappear before your very eyes.