My Suppression

My lips, taped with a black cross
My hands, tied to my back
My knees, on the rocky pavement
bleeding in vain

My eyes can’t see no more

For the truth is right here in front of me
I am silenced, not to speak the truth

For the fear it creates, the resentment it evokes
The topping of societies, the restructuring of governance

The bearer of justice is blind
The world sees colours and genders
They stereotype, discriminate, and prejudice
Into boxes of fixed perception

In this dominant white male supremacy
The hey days of the old colonial British past
The flags of white, red and blue
capitalism of manipulation.

A curse of the pen
A writer I am.


Grey Fields

A young girl in a white dress
standing alone in a grey field
in a mirage of war torn buildings

Lost from her parents.

Her screams cracks the skies apart
It pierces and chills
all souls into dust

Desperation. Isolation. Despair.

She lifts up her hands to touch
the bright glowing light in the distance
as it came nearer and nearer towards her
she ran forward, and forward,

Leaving behind the shattered life once so beautiful

She ran to the rising sun of dawn
On a tall cliff, a thousand screams from the darkness below
Her feet bleeding from the stones, her skirt tattered into shreds
Her hands, stretched out to touch the glowing light above

A final step, and she falls into the valleys
Her eyes still fixated on the sun
Her hands unable to touch
as she falls further and further
deeper and deeper

into emptiness.


Tear me to pieces

Tear me to pieces, like a broken doll. Take all the parts of me, abuse me, kick me, hate me. She is not breathing. Tell me you loved me, you desired me that you wanted all of me. No, you bastard, you killed her. She is no longer there no more. She is smiling in the clouds above, far from the cruel world - for death is the key to peace. No more nightmares come at night to haunt her, no more demons to rip her clothes in the middle of the night - she is in eternal bliss with her brother on the stairways to heaven, hand in hand, where they finally unite beyond the veil of this world. Where he can protect her and bring her to safety… to paradise and beyond.


Into A Dream, You Came

Under the moon you came in a dream

Into my bedroom balcony, into the arched shaped windows

You carried me gently from my bed in my silky white nightdress

In your arms, as I held your neck tightly

I saw your translucent wings spread apart from behind your back

As you took me away from my room, and flew through the night air

Like a white dove in the skies, towards the moon.


Singapore - A Facade of Lies

Looking back at Singapore, I realised it is an island of mypoicism. A system of rigidity and conformism. A place where people lose their identities and their individualism. To have independent thought is a defect, to say yes and be agreeable to what the government says is a norm. To have your voice heard is a threat to national security. Reporters are told what to write by the state controlled newspapers. Televisions only show what the government wants the people to see. A beautiful garden city it is, with a swiss standard of life. The citizens grow disillusioned at their own surroundings, thinking it is the safest place in the world - at the expense of their freedom.

The citizens have no idea how much money is in the reserves. No idea what the government is doing with their savings. Or is there even a penny left after the recession. All they know is that, the government is doing a fantastic job, so they deserve the world’s highest paying salaries to its ministers for a world class government. No qualms on that, Singaporeans are just too happy to oblige and nod their heads to what the government wishes to do with them. After all, they go through a system of route learning and become obedient servants to the nation by going into occupations that the economy needs, working overtime with low pay and living in small cramped HDB flats. That is life to them, nothing else. To have shelter, good education and a stable job is all they need.

As a national past time, there is always shopping. With so many shopping centers being built every year, it is becoming a playground for the rich. To add to the buzz is the up and coming casinos, yacht facilities and a new downtown at marina bay. I wonder if its citizens feel like tourists in their own island. Commercialisation is the central motivation to every person’s lives. To make money to spend, to dine and wine and lose themselves to the material world. In the city with the highest percentage of millionaires in the world, no doubt they could enjoy their lives in their elite playground till they die.

You see, Singapore is not like any country. It is not a country really, it is a country running as a company - termed as Singapore INC. We employ the best ministers to be the CEOs, the best civil servants as the best employees so as to generate the most revenue for the country’s prosperity. After all, a good economy is the country’s essential survival tool given its fragile shores being flanked by Muslim dominated countries on all sides. The island’s continual survival is questionable, and risky, if the economy weakens, the fear of an attack is very real. This vulnerability is well known amongst its citizens, and this weakness is what makes the citizens subservient to the government gasp of power. For its only resource is human resources, the country does not have water, food produce, minerals - no resources at all in an area size of 693 sq km that it is seen as a dot on the world map.

Despite is fragility, it is also believed to be the safest country in Asia due to the lack of natural disasters. Or rather, it is a lie. After the leader of the terrorist group walked out of jail in broad daylight, the nation’s perceived safety is questionable. Or that there are cases of missing people notices being plastered all over the train stations. Or the brutal butchering of body parts being dumped into Kallang River. Or that a 5 year old girl was killed and thrown into a box hidden under a bridge. The frequency of these cases springing up on news headlines every year in this “safe” nation is sure to raise eyebrows - if this nation is truly safe from its own citizens despite having one of the stiffest penalties in the world?

Is Singapore a facade of lies it wants its citizens to believe in?
That you can only answer.


Green Fields

Green fields, wide open spaces, drifting into a dream, into paradise and beyond, showering you with kisses under the stars, just you and me, together forever in a fairy tale come true.


I Love You

I love you
This night we will stay forever
In this embrace trapped together

I love you
I think I really do
For tonight we are miles away
I think of you the same way

I miss you
I think I do
For you remind me of my brother
Who is there when I have fallen

I want you
I really feel so
For you are so soft and fragile
I just want to tell you its ok.


Fly Away

Fly away, fly away
Like a bird in the skies
As free as the highway
See the world passing by
Like the breeze of the wind

Fly towards paradise
A heavenly place that love reside
In human hearts we find
the deepest desires of our mind.


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24 August 2009 @ 1pm

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The Phantom

In my dreams I scream your name.

I want you so bad that it hurts inside to see you go. The source of my suffering comes from knowing you, for I see your face in the darkness and disappearing into the shadows, and you are not there anymore.

This dark pit I stand in looking up at you from below, you see me but you deny I am in there as you walk away with this heaviness in your heart.

“No more, no more”, you say to yourself as I watch you disappear into the darkness of the night, into the streets of indigo trees and brownish dark roads. Your hands in your pockets and your head hung low as you walk away from the source of your misery and happiness.

“I miss you”, I say to myself while standing in the cold watching you walk away.

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That night I laid my heavy head on your shoulder, I felt a sense of heaven bliss, that comfort, that familiarity, the thrill of sleeping with a stranger. I felt so wonderful with you around, no one would ever be able to replace that presence that you left behind.

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In my dreams I screamed your name, you turned back to look at me as you walk down that lonely black road alone. I screamed your name again and ran towards your cold body and hugged you tight. You hugged me tightly in return. Your aching heart bearing it no longer. “I am here.” I assured you. “I love you.” you said with tears in your voice.

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Disappear, walk away never

No, come back to me

We will be together forever

She is not breathing, can’t you see?

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Men lie about their feelings 99% of the time.