We are living in a world so harsh that I take my pills each day to numb me from the pain. They ask me why do I do it, I could only tell them, “imagine being happy and relaxed… without any worries, won’t you want to join me too?”
Everyone has a different way of coping with the harsh reality, one of the most common escapism is alcoholism, which several of my friends are addicted to. I take my pills, drink, and dance the night away… without any care of a shit in this world.
Aren’t we all just a group of escapist from a circus that ran wild? Yes, I would say, we all are in the same sinking boat to depression. Aren’t you guilty of this too? Of wanting to run away and never come back to this horrid place?
You tell me, you are out of your mind. I would say to you, how about you? Are you sane from all the shit or burying your head in the sand and screaming in the darkness each night. No, you are not sane either, one day you will break down and explode like a dynamite. This I tell you, because of the countless of suicide cases each day resulting from the stresses of life. Do you believe me not?
Join me in my parade of pills, sitting in line with a cup of clear water to drown them all, before drifting into a better world, a world without stresses or a shit to care.
I thought about dying, the sure way I wouldn’t want to die from overdose of pills and alcohol. That is so uncool. The coolest way to die, is to be ripped of everything I have by a stranger, to be stripped bare and raped forcibly while being cut up alive… till I bleed to death.
You fear me now? Or do you fear death? Death is nothing at all, I look at it in the eye daily, death is much better then living. But while we are living, we have to find a way out of this place. How? By control and influencing the masses to believe in us. You agree with me not? That we are controlled now?
Pardon my frankness, for I am real and you are not.
AVERRAL writes under pen name Scarlet Risqué. She stars in Scarlet Queen YouTube with over a million views. She holds a degree in business. The RED HOURGLASS is ranked Top 50 Espionage Thriller on Amazon. She is currently writing the sequels to the Hourglass Series. Grab a free copy of her novel now RED HOURGLASS on Amazon |