In my dreams I scream your name.
I want you so bad that it hurts inside to see you go. The source of my suffering comes from knowing you, for I see your face in the darkness and disappearing into the shadows, and you are not there anymore.
This dark pit I stand in looking up at you from below, you see me but you deny I am in there as you walk away with this heaviness in your heart.
“No more, no more”, you say to yourself as I watch you disappear into the darkness of the night, into the streets of indigo trees and brownish dark roads. Your hands in your pockets and your head hung low as you walk away from the source of your misery and happiness.
“I miss you”, I say to myself while standing in the cold watching you walk away.
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That night I laid my heavy head on your shoulder, I felt a sense of heaven bliss, that comfort, that familiarity, the thrill of sleeping with a stranger. I felt so wonderful with you around, no one would ever be able to replace that presence that you left behind.
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In my dreams I screamed your name, you turned back to look at me as you walk down that lonely black road alone. I screamed your name again and ran towards your cold body and hugged you tight. You hugged me tightly in return. Your aching heart bearing it no longer. “I am here.” I assured you. “I love you.” you said with tears in your voice.
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Disappear, walk away never
No, come back to me
We will be together forever
She is not breathing, can’t you see?
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Men lie about their feelings 99% of the time.
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Can I ask if your writing is driven by personal experience? It just seems to encapsulate so much pain.
Yes, this story in particular summarises my emotions of unrequited love. It is very painful indeed. This is the ending (as you can see, my dreams have already modified the outcome to make it less painful).
I wrote some of these after walking around with tears in my eyes over a period of a few days, maybe from a combination of homesickness, loneliness and isolation.
Thank you for your feedback, it motivates me to write and post up more stuff. Maybe we could chat sometime on msn? My email is averral @ hotmail.com. I would love to hear more from you.
Regards,
Averal Lim
I thought so. I think it is hard to write about so much pain if you have never actually experienced it. While I do like your writings in terms of the quality of the writing, I can’t help but feel that you must have had some some hard experiences. Have you considered expanding your writings to more extended pieces?
The writings on this blog are more emotive and experimental in style that I had developed over the last few years from being in touch of my feelings. I have been through very tough experiences that no one should ever go through. I try my best to live each day as my last, sometimes, pushing myself a little too much.
I would love to share the extended story lines I developed but unfortunately, the internet does not provide much copyright so I only put up short personal works.
I will try to update more works over time when I feel I am ready, they are kept hidden in some of my notebooks, some of them I refuse to face or turn to the page I wrote before.
I am glad you appreciate my writings and your comments motivates me to pursue writing as a career, as much as my personal convictions tells me to do so, it is a road less taken, and a very lonely solitary path indeed.
Brilliant! I love it that you are passionate enough to pursue your dreams of writing.That taking the plane to New York on 1 Jan sounds fantastic. Very romantic in the best sense of the word. I wish I had your courage. I admire people with your kind of courage… and talent.
I would love to read your writing. I promise to buy the first edition once you get published. I agree. You have to protect your work.
Do make sure you have a safety net. Writing is great, but it may take time to get enough of a rep to be able to make a living writing.