Albert Einstein – “Dancers are the athletes of God.”
Dancing is probably the most honest expression of the human soul, in my opinion. Ever since actively dancing, I am extremely vulnerable with my feelings, in a much wider spectrum than ever previously experienced. It has helped me get in touch with who I am inside, and to express it without judgement and fear… there is no holding back in dance, there is only expression.
Previously, when I was in the business world, holding back emotions was the key to making good objective decisions. Logical linear thoughts of black and white, like ink and paper. Everything is in written form, for people to read and for us, to write.. in report concise formats.
It took me about two months to adjust my mindset from a business one, to an artist life. There is only one choice in these two vastly different worlds. There is no compromise, or inbetween. It is a serious conflict to be an artist and business person. If once can do that, he would be a renaissance man. I have to admit I am not that brilliant to juggle both worlds, hence I chose the business world for the initial five years of my life. After experiencing extreme numbing to my emotions, like a poker player, I knew I could no longer hold out. I had the weaker hand to begin with, I can not think logically like the others on the table, I am driven by pure raw instincts. That makes me prone to making wrong business decisions, when my heart takes over my mind. I gave up my old life of the corporate world. I knew, art was my calling. I intend to stick with an artist life for as long as possible.
Maybe Risque and Cheryl is my manifestation of my own personal struggle to come to terms with my own identity from the outside and internal world. From the modern mindsets and conflicting traditional values. From being a man’s fantasy, to an innocent child. The gap is huge, and hard to comprehend, even by myself. This is what I see in women on a daily basis, I am just, as an artist, painting what I observe, in the canvas of video blogging The Scarlet Queen.
I was walking out of my home one day, and I saw a girl walking in the rain. She was a young girl of eighteen, puffing her cigarettes although she was getting drenched in the pouring rain. I came up from behind her, and offered to share my umbrella. She kindly accepted. No words crossed us. As we stood at the traffic lights, waiting for the lights to turn green, I felt her heart. I felt her pain and agony inside. The closeness of us standing together in the rain, under the same umbrella, made me connect with her sadness. She continued to puff her cigarettes, flashing a smile of gratefulness before turning away, her eyes were set dead as stone. As we reached the sheltered indoor area, she offered one last word of thanks, with a temporary smile – before drifting back into her soulless life.
That experience made me connect with another human in another level, I can’t explain. When it rains, I feel that it washes away my pain, and makes me feel tranquil.. that I usually sleep peacefully on rainy nights. When I shared an umbrella with a stranger, I felt.. unsettled. I felt, there is something… more. It is not just what I feel. It is what she felt, that connected with me. This is what I use to drive my emotions – the fuel for my creative works – the emotion of interconnectedness with others.
In partner dancing, we are randomly allocated to strangers to practice our steps. In one night, we could switch partners about ten to twenty times, depending on the men to female ratio. We are connected to dance as one, from the tension we press onto each other hands. We are… feeling what the other person is feeling, as we try to lead and follow, it is scary yet exciting at the same time. Like sharing an umbrella in the rain, we have to depend on each other for signals to execute our steps. When we hold onto each other hands, the emotions run through us, propelling the speed and intensity of the dance itself, with the synergistic chemistry in our interconnectedness.
After all, dancers are the athletes of god. We are just… vessels for great ideas to flow through our bodies.. to execute our art.
Facebook Update: After dancing for four hours a day, six days in a row, I could imagine dancing when I am walking, swaying to the beat of music in the shopping mall, opening doors like doing a spin.
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AVERRAL writes under pen name Scarlet Risqué. She stars in Scarlet Queen YouTube with over a million views. She holds a degree in business. The RED HOURGLASS is ranked Top 50 Espionage Thriller on Amazon. She is currently writing the sequels to the Hourglass Series. Grab a free copy of her novel now RED HOURGLASS on Amazon |
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