The prospect of death is real
to an artist or writer
Our moods drift in and out
high and lows
like tides of the sea
When we get too low
there is no turning back
the last time I was ….
low… I almost could not wake up
the next morning..
It was fucking scary.
That was three years back.
I had decided to dedicate my life to artistry
However, I know its a curse
Because I don’t know how long I will live
in my mental cage of imagination
I am suffering daily
By experiencing the exact same pain and happiness
When I write and act as my characters
drawing on every single emotion
I had experienced
to do my utmost best
in every single act.
Sometimes I just want to close my eyes and not wake up
The people who smile the most, are the ones hurting the most inside
The pain I feel when I wake up in the morning and before I sleep at night
Is overwhelming.
I am losing myself
slowly but gradually
I will know myself no more
I had erased my old identity
forging a new one
that I do not understand
I don’t know myself. anymore.
Alone, i am on the verge of death
With someone to offer security,
I am The Scarlet Queen.
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AVERRAL writes under pen name Scarlet Risqué. She stars in Scarlet Queen YouTube with over a million views. She holds a degree in business. The RED HOURGLASS is ranked Top 50 Espionage Thriller on Amazon. She is currently writing the sequels to the Hourglass Series. Grab a free copy of her novel now RED HOURGLASS on Amazon |
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