Growth and Suffocation 

 

 Over the years I had materialized concepts that I imagined and applied like building fresh Lego pieces into a grand castle design to conquer reality into what I had envisioned it to be. The scale of which started from a small action, such as writing on a blog, to big scale implementation such as writing a marathon novel. It’s part of my personal development journey that I had attempted to document on this blog to share my observations with the world, whoever may be the thousands of viewers who stumble on this blog monthly.

I believe humans are underutilizing their abilities due to social constructs that limits their advancement. The very organisations we design are not catered to humans who are biologically designed to have multiple talents. In fact I believe that working in a singular fixed job without external interests of hobbies leads to the degradation of the mind in the long term. 

The general discontentment and low life satisfaction rate of people in developed countries is the reflection of how modern society attempts to class and divide people into streams and labels in organisational hierarchies. It starts with school, we are given a grade and the final score of university entry exams determines the outcome of an adoscelent adulthood and lifestyle. 

That predetermination of streaming at a premature age limits and hinders personal growth that could otherwise be materialized to fruitation into a multi potiential human being with the ability to redesign and recreate reality of his own. 

It kills off entrepreneurs who otherwise may have learnt the tools in business school wasn’t for their low scores in maths or science or languages. The inaccuracy of grading ones ability using written assessments is a detriment to the otherwise unfounded development of a person who could have blossomed into a world leader. 

I dropped out of two schools in my lifetime because I felt it wasn’t aligned to my interests and outcome. The best opportunity given to me in my life was the years I spent in Melbourne where I discovered and formulated my identity and broke out of my constrains of what was expected of a typical conservative Asian girl. By 21, I had a business degree in my belt and was highly graded on my business presentations. There wasn’t a question my lecturers posed that I couldn’t answer on the spot.  What runs me is that I have to get it right. Do it right, do it right. It is screaming at the back of my mind. 

Maybe having an almost perfect memory for written text and the ability to condense and link large amounts of factual data is a blessing in disguise. I knew the answers before they were told. Sometimes I wonder if I could read people minds. 

The Landmark Forum Advanced course was a breakthrough in my understanding of the pieces I had been trying to solve for some time. How does one change the world? I finally got my answer – it starts with writing the future now. 

I redesigned my life to be a work of art. I don’t want to live a blind slavish life to pursuing materialistic short term gratification. However I feel that my works are being abused instead of appreciated as I am on the wrong medium. 

I am seriously reconsidering my artistic direction on my YouTube channel to take it to a new unthreaded frontier. This may mean I will change my content to make it only accessible to paid subscribers to achieve the next milestone. There will be no more free content to be released to the public. Changing my medium of communication will enable me to focus on quality and depth. 
My despodence grows from knowing that my journey is solitary and my messages may never be comprehended. But it’s okay, as long I am here I will keep trying to communicate my definition of beauty to alleviate human suffering. 

Writing the future now has never been so empowering. The mastery of self lies in the mastery of language. I am glad to have taken the path of being a writer. Language is the access to recreating the reality we live in for the advancement of mankind.

The reality we live in only exists in the future now that we create. The possibility starts with daily consistent actions. I am awake and not asleep no more. 

I am finally released from my suffering.  

AVERRAL writes under pen name Scarlet Risqué. She stars in Scarlet Queen YouTube with over a million views. She holds a degree in business. The RED HOURGLASS is ranked Top 50 Espionage Thriller on Amazon. She is currently writing the sequels to the Hourglass Series. Grab a free copy of her novel now RED HOURGLASS on Amazon

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