The longest writing block ever

by | | Her

I have not been writing actively for around 5 months now. It is quite frightening to blank out, when I have been doing so on a daily basis. I would attribute it to many factors – stress from adapting, travelling, too engaged with other projects. I would like to write more, but my mindset is rather different now. It is quite difficult to put it to words.

I had recently undertook a online writer’s course, but still I am lacking in motivation or inspiration to write. I feel like I am someone else. I might come under a different pen name for the sake of being “someone else”. I will be attempting to write more outside as I have been stuck at home for the past few weeks.

I always wanted to invent a device to increase the amount of time I have to work by extracting it from others who do not need their time (because they are lazy or unmotivated). Sometimes, I think we are not utilizing our maximum productivity because of pure procrastination. After a certain limit of working, we naturally tend to feel tired and lethargic. Imagine if you could take a syringe, poke it into some lazy dude, and extract his time so you can increase your productivity. I am sure he would be happy for that (as he would feel life is too boring for him anyway – does that sound familiar to you?). Sounds weird but it does make alot of sense.

Robin Thicke

by | | Features

A mixed style of Victorian styled art; captured beautifully within a
low-key lighting atmosphere. All fused together in an seductive, high
brow, renaissance like, romantic setting.

Gareth Pugh

by | | Features

On Gareth Pugh (whom i think, is the most talented fashion designer during our time) – If only one day the world will be dressed in his vision. It would be a futuristic – latex – black – leather – cubism – fetish kind of look with a very edgy feel and appeal about it. I would like to get my hands on some of the jackets, but it would be totally weird to dress this way when everyone is still in the blue  jeans era. It would be something like a scene out of the matrix – only cooler without those stupid sunglasses indoors.

Happy and Contented

by | | Her

I am currently in a very happy and contented state of my life that I wish would go on forever in a place where we belong. I never had experienced this state of tranquilly for such a long time, maybe the only moments I had ever felt this way was being caressed like a baby in my mother’s arms. I feel safe, secure and protected. I felt I had been fighting a war and I could finally rest.

After touring New York and Los Angeles, I discovered more ugliness in capitalism. After coming back to Melbourne, I discovered more beauty in the small and simple things in life that can never be brought or sold. If I had a choice, I would make my world beautiful and live in it like a doll in a doll house. I have been doing just that, decorating my new home with floral patterns and soft white linen. There is a green lush tree outside my window that smiles at me each day. I had found my happiness, and I am very lucky indeed.

I am honestly sick with my old life. I wish never to return to it again. I hated living a lie. It was everything I was not. I never felt accepted or appreciated for who I was. I never felt belonged. I always felt I dropped out from outer space and landed on the wrong place. I was misunderstood for a quarter of my life, and I am going to put an end to it all, for I can plan what I want for myself for the next three quarters of my life ahead.

Here, I feel belonged. I feel safe. I feel appreciated. I feel beautiful. I feel that the world is waiting for me, and I don’t have to chase or fight for anything. I can stay in my shell and know that when I come out I will not be harmed.

I will be revamping this site soon to start afresh on a new note.

Size 8 Going On Size 10

by | | Melbourne

After since I came to Australia, being fed rich and tasty food in huge portions, going out with friends and eating all those sins…

I think my days of modeling is numbered.

As much as I like to be in front of the camera and edit images, being in this country is going to just make me gain more and more weight till I become undesirable and unattractive.

That kind of sucks.

Let me show you why I can’t lose weight here.

My favourite mushroom pasta at la porchetta.

Sophia gigantic portions that can feed a family.

The very enjoyable cafe/pub culture outdoors

And of course, the lack of exercise because its simply too cold or too hot to do so.
Now i am on a sushi diet, as it seems to be the only thing here that is small in size for girls who want to remain attractive. Gosh.