The Addict Speaks – Screwed Up

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Today, I brought a packet of lucky stars (in their paper form), those they used to sell in small provision shops. With the onslaught of fast food, we have fast gifts too. Over time, those small shops stopped selling these lucky stars as people just simply did not have the time to make them. When I saw the shop selling them, it came upon me that humanity can be saved – with just a little more sincerity in the things we do.

All of us have our addictions, for mine, its the pills, without them I won’t be able write like that. Every person I know has an addiction – shopping, gaming, gambling… the list goes on. Why do we need addictions? If you ask me why, I would just simply say the world is screwed up. If the onslaught of commercialisation and slaving our general populace to work, create unnecessary stresses and burdens, and greed did not exist, we will generally be happier, and folding lucky stars. That is my way of coping, by doing so retardedly stupid things that make no sense to practicality.

I am, in fact, very angry and disturbed every time I step out of my door. When I come home at night, I feel sadness again. Sadness for the world, for social inequality, for wide income gaps… for suffering and poverty. I would think each night how to create a just and fair world where everyone would be happy. But in reality, this happy world just does not exist with greed.

Why are you so angsty? Well, maybe, I have more feelings then you do, that I do care about people around me instead of just myself, which we have been conditioned by the world to do so. Which idiot would be a hero and save the rest and give up his own life nowadays? No, everyone would just watch the rest die in front of their eyes and laugh after that, like those twisted movies we see on our screens each day. Slowly, we will learn not to feel, and be automated and shaped by the media, people and government in what sort of appropriate behaviour we are expected to portray.

Go screw up your life, tell me how you feel when that happens.
(or tell me, why don’t you want to screw up your life)

The Addict Speaks – You are Afraid To Hurt Yourself

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Well, after reading my last post you must have found me the most skeptical person in the world, don’t you agree? But i have answers for you, answers that you seek. Why do you hide your true self away from the world? Are you afraid to hurt others? No, that is not true at all. I can tell you the real reason why, because, you are are afraid to hurt yourself. Think about that. Ponder over it, before proceeding.

Every human is born pure and good, the world corrupts them slowly and cruelly with all the harshness it throws onto you, blanking you out from a world of light to a world of darkness. That is why, we naturally fear darkness, fear the unknown, fear. That fear cripples us, makes us helpless and weak. That fear, controls you, eats you up inside, and consumes you.

Let me tell you the next universal truth that you should know – fear is imaginary. It is your imagination running wild, but it isn’t there. You created the fear, the fear of yourself. Your fear is an illusion. You can use your mind to conquer it, make it disappear.

Are you loving me now? After all, I am The Addict, the most morbid person you will ever find that will forcibly drench a pail of cold water on your face to wake you up inside. I am probably, your worst fear, because I am able to tell you the truths you been hiding from. Do you agree not?

How do you conquer fear? It is simple actually, it is just one four letter word that embodies the essence of the world – love. Love conquers fear. The next time you meet the person you love, give him/her a hug, and tell me how you feel.

Are you loving me? Yes, I am loving you too. Catch me if you can.

The Addict Speaks – Escapism

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We are living in a world so harsh that I take my pills each day to numb me from the pain. They ask me why do I do it, I could only tell them, “imagine being happy and relaxed… without any worries, won’t you want to join me too?”

Everyone has a different way of coping with the harsh reality, one of the most common escapism is alcoholism, which several of my friends are addicted to. I take my pills, drink, and dance the night away… without any care of a shit in this world.

Aren’t we all just a group of escapist from a circus that ran wild? Yes, I would say, we all are in the same sinking boat to depression. Aren’t you guilty of this too? Of wanting to run away and never come back to this horrid place?

You tell me, you are out of your mind. I would say to you, how about you? Are you sane from all the shit or burying your head in the sand and screaming in the darkness each night. No, you are not sane either, one day you will break down and explode like a dynamite. This I tell you, because of the countless of suicide cases each day resulting from the stresses of life. Do you believe me not?

Join me in my parade of pills, sitting in line with a cup of clear water to drown them all, before drifting into a better world, a world without stresses or a shit to care.

I thought about dying, the sure way I wouldn’t want to die from overdose of pills and alcohol. That is so uncool. The coolest way to die, is to be ripped of everything I have by a stranger, to be stripped bare and raped forcibly while being cut up alive… till I bleed to death.

You fear me now? Or do you fear death? Death is nothing at all, I look at it in the eye daily, death is much better then living. But while we are living, we have to find a way out of this place. How? By control and influencing the masses to believe in us. You agree with me not? That we are controlled now?

Pardon my frankness, for I am real and you are not.

Spellbound

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Are you spellbound by my lips? My gentle caress down your back… bringing you closer to a place no one knows.