My Duality

I feel like screaming till the world fades away
Falling in an endless dark pit

Till i reach the bottom of the darkness
Where there is nothing, void.

In this void I feel there is nothing there to be afraid
There is nothing to think about
Or nothing to fear

In this void I sink further into a deeper depression
Not wanting to wake up into this horrid world
Not wanting to ever face this ugly human race

I swear and curse in the bottom of the pit
Where no one can hear me
I bury my head in my hands

This pathetic soul, this pathetic human
So weak, so vulnerable
So undeserving of love.

Fuck this place, I screamed
As i tore my mask and threw it onto the floor
I stomp on it repetitively, till it breaks into two.

I pick up that mask and wear it on my face
Now, there is two of me -

One horrid one beautiful
One kind, one cruel
One giving, one selfish
One hatred, one loving

My duality is complete.